Priceless Peace

I love this quote by John Ortberg, "What God does in us while we wait, is just as important as what it is we're waiting for." I might even venture to say that it is more important than what it is we're waiting for because life is always about the journey and not the destination.
We are still not sure whether we are moving to West Dallas or not but what Brian and I are learning in the midst of waiting has been priceless.
I am learning to take God at His Word(Psalm 119:42) and to trust in His holy name(Psalm 33:21). Who am I to think that I know what is best when all I can see is the here and now but He can see my past, my innermost thoughts, my fears, my struggles and my future?
I am learning to not only accept Brian's authority(1 Peter 3:5) in our marriage but to find peace in it. Our past has been characterized mainly by me wanting something and manipulating Brian to get what I want. But by taking God at His Word it feels like I have unlocked this magical door that, when I open it, a wave sweeps me off my feet and washes me with peace...and it makes me giddy.
Though I like John Ortberg's quote a lot, my all time favorite is by Staci Eldredge..."As a woman I don't need to strive, I don't need to arrange, I don't need to make things happen. All I need to do is respond."
That's been my journey. Embracing, even more, the God given role that He has given me and embracing the God given role He has given Brian.
We'll see what shore that wave washes us up on.......

"Taste and see that the Lord is good. Oh, the joys of those who trust in Him!" Psalm 35:8

Oh My Gosh Bubbles!

breaks my heart

Today Brian came with us to eat lunch with Dajia at her school. We also brought along Treveon's (Dajis's little brother) birthday present to give to him. We saw him in the cafeteria and he ran up to us; and what surprised me was that Caleb gave him a big bear hug and lifted him off the ground.:) Treveon was so thrilled to get a gift but not long afterwards his spirit was shot when a teacher yelled at him, "Come here boy! What makes you think you deserve a gift after the way you've been acting?!"

Breaks my heart.

What breaks my heart more was that I did not stand up for him. I did nothing. I didn't explain to the teacher that we were the ones who pulled him aside. I didn't explain to her that it was a birthday gift. I was a coward. I was a coward because it has happened once before where a teacher yelled at Dajia and Caleb for goofing around. But that time I did stand up for them and apologized on their behalf but she continued on with her shaming.
I stood up for these kids last time and it did nothing so I didn't stand up this time. I am ashamed because I should've said something not only to help the teacher understand the situation but because it was the right thing to do.

I wonder if that teacher knows about a Man who died for her; and not because of anything she deserved but only because she is so dearly loved. I am thankful that I do; but am heartbroken that my fear outweighed the Truth and Love that I know.

"All that is necessary for the triumph of evil is that good men do nothing."-Edmund Burke
I hope and pray that next time I will do something.